deja vu

I always feel that there are cases of deja vu occuring for me. A dream becomes reality. But what goes beyond the dream, I'm unable to know.

But this sense of deja vu seems to have dwindled, seems to have lost its sense of purpose, for people come and go. Like or Love? I do not know.

To have a Seraph like an Angel, it's impossible to happen. There was already a difference in ranks, for a Seraph sits higher up the Council of Celestial Beings than the Angel, which is a mere lowly being.

There was once a time when the Seraph tried asking the Angel out for a simple event. The Seraph was instantly rejected, with a reason as simple as it seemed. Well, it seemed. The Seraph was hurt when the Angel gave a false reply, and he was unsettled on learning that. Why? He often wondered. He knew that the answer lay somewhere. Was it the ranks between them? Was it the difference in ideologies? Was it just a one-sided liking? What made the matters worse was the side-talk by the other beings, who made fun of him.

The Seraph can not yet decide, and the days tick by. Soon, it's time to bid goodbye, and he decides that he would not like to do so, and he would disappear, for he should not have done what he had. He had known the consequences of such actions, and it would be the talk of the other celestial beings, those closer to the Angel especially.

Yet, he trudges on, with mixed emotions of the Angel, who is bound for another destination, far away from him. What should the Seraph do? Two obvious routes lay to him. The first, to carry on the chasing, in the faint hope of getting her attention; the other is to drift away from the 'fantasy' world and to get on with life.

His current analysis is to let the Angel go, wishing the Angel bliss and happiness, whilst he goes on the long journey into life, looking out for the soul-mate whom he could share joy and happiness, sadness and tears. It wasn't really a tough decision actually, considering that he did not know the Angel's feelings towards him. Maybe it was a one-sided like/love. Blind Love, Fantasy, whatever. The Cancerian trait of loving undeservingly and giving much and asking little in return usually bears no fruit. At the back of the mind, he knows that he cannot break up the inseperable union of another bond, being a third party is the last thing he would every do.

Current Music: The Daydream - Love Is...