Really dazed and shack. Mentally more than physically, esp. during the recent months.
Did I do something wrong? What's wrong with me? I just don't get it. The feeling just aint there.
Running also getting slower. I think if I take IPPT now, sure die. Dunno why. -.-
Is it something I've not done? Concentrating too much to work? Neglecting my physical fitness?
Maybe I AM putting too much effort. Then again, maybe I am not.
People comment that NSF should just do work, not too much, just nice would be good. Do it right, just don't get on the wrong side of your superiors, and a smooth 2.5 years...or so they say.
I like my job, yet...the fact remains that SAF (as a whole) doesnt recognise NSFs who dedicate themselves during their short stint in army.
And I'm talking of so many NSFs whom I've seen in my short stint as PC. Matthew, Kok Seng, Kumar, Xingda, Vijay, Jon etc... Maybe the unit recognises them...but more than that? I doubt so...
I wonder why. Are such ppl, in their eyes, not good? Why get ppl who can't work?
Letting those who are promising and with the passion and talent go, yet allow those unproven to sign on, not knowing what they can contribute.
Then again, I'm not pointing fingers at all those who signed on even before the day they step into SAF. I'm talking about those present, eating, sleeping, talking, working with us. Each has their own story. Each has their own working habits. Each has his/her own good points. Each has their own shortcomings. No one is perfect.
Perfection...a word, almost deviod of meaning now. What IS perfection? Searching for the answer, yet not finding it, certainly brings one to a non-conclusion.
Life sucks. Live it.
Just a ranting on a cool windy day...
Current Mood: 
Emotionless
Current Music: Chang Dong Liang - Dang Ni Gu Dan Ni Hui Xiang Qi Shui
After a hiatus of not blogging....man, it just feels weird to be typing....again :p Just woke up from a deep slumber, yesterday was really a sweaty night sia...took so damn long to find the bar where the guys are out for Jansen's bday party. lolx.
Finished my NFSU2 already, all cars unlocked, but due to the older version (w/o patch), couldn't unlock the final wide body kit. Manz...it doesnt bother me already. hahaz.
Recently was quite tired and busy due to so much stuff to handle, quite a lot to learn at the same time. Personally doing the reports really make you understand and learn more. Besides, learning from scratch aint easy.
On top of that, I can see the end of the tunnel! lolx. Not that I'm wishing for it, but the new cadet/officer-to-be, Allan, who is my replacement has finally come for OJT! Alas, his ORD is just 3 mths from mine, which effectively speaking does not really help much. Huh. Oh well. At least he would be in for a big 'Arrow'. Mwhahaha. Brought him around to have a look, and got him to read up on the CWP and TM on the first day, after briefly explaining what the entire 6DSMB organisation and working procedure is like. Of course, 1 day aint enough to cover all, and he has only 1.5 weeks of attachment, which is so little compared to what I had (3.5 weeks) in 6DSMB last year at this time. Intending to let him more into my jobscope as well as what the guys down on the ground do, so it's time to get hands dirty :evil:
Yesterday met up with Elton, Elvin, Jiahao, Sam and Kok Seng...the ORD batch. Dinner @ Yoshinoya. Oh and SSG Koh also joined in, Shiang Han was there also. Quite good to meet up with them after a long long time. All ard the same, not much changes, except Sam....his hairdo was.... -nothing to say-.
Played CS with them after dinner, but Kok Seng din join us...otherwise it would be a 4 on 4 fair match. lolx. Played at Parklane, and MSG Lee and CPT Don were supposed to join in, but both did not make it. So it was a 4 on 3 match, quite funny and good game. Elton and Jiahao at their best. lol. First to kill must be Elton :evil: otherwise I cant win hahahaz.
After CS, bid farewell, and joined the other group of guys, over at Duxton Rd. Really had no idea how to get there, nearly lost my way despite taking the NEL. Got directed wrongly, and ended up at Lucky Chinatown. After realising where EXACTLY they were supposed to be, I finally met up with the HA guys, who were already partying away. Stayed on, drank and played cards with them, after all it was a day to chill out. Nonetheless, soon it was to part, and when I reached home to wash out and sleep, it was a deep slumber sia. lolx.
Current Mood: 
Awake
Current Music: The Lazy Boyz - Sweet Child Of Mine
Went to the last day of Sitex...man. Was it crowded... Rained prior to my arrival...showers did little to dampen the spirits of many bargain hunters looking to chew on some last minute snap-ups ^_^
Met up with Zhenming, who wanted to look @ some of the laptops, but BASICALLY he was there for a second time (he went yesterday). So I was there for the first time, getting phamplets thrown into my hands and ppl asking whether I'm interested in their products or not...
Was quite impressed by some of the products there I must say, like the expensive and exquisite looking Sony Vaio, which had a promoter, China-born I bet, promoting the stuff. Pretty okay guy I must say, but the price, $3999, just puts me off. Way off.
The HP booth was interesting, with the desktop they were trying to pitch. Zhenming was actually looking into a new computer, I was the one who told him to get a desktop so that he could play Doom 3 and HL2, so we started viewing the 'best-seller' for HP. Pretty good stats too. And the promoter was obviously some young DIY enthusiast who is on a temp job earning some money, and started talking about how the computer he's selling is good for games and stuff like that, plus the interior of the computer was shown to us :D Nice setup, not messy, but DIFFICULT to upgrade.
The Compaq booth just next door was also great. I asked the salesman what's the difference between them and HP since both were under the same boss, and he replied that it was just them selling their own brand of stuff, different from HP. My next pt, which I wanted to ask, was, so what's different....but I held that back ^^" And their pitch? Their's is worth the money, and cheaper. And the guy is obviously some undergrad who knows that students aint supposed to be into gaming and the like whilst shopping for a desktop/laptop. Yea. He's right....but I aint a student...for now =X
The best? Well, I stepped into the PDA section for HP, and this lady immediately asked whether I was looking for a PDA. I am open to all options, so I agreed for a demo of her PDA, naturally. :) And she proceeded to show me the functions of the PDA, not that I'm really that impressed, well, but the best part was that when she was showing the Word Recognition system of the PDA, it just failed. Yea. Failed to recognise her handwriting. And Zhenming tried, and failed. So my mind had thoughts like, "Gee...is this really reliable?!?!" And the lady was protesting that this is the first time she was showing it today afternoon and it was working fine earlier in the morning...in a cute way too ^_^" So, good-heartedly I decided to say that I would go around looking at more of the exhibits instead, and would come round should I make a decision.
The other booths were quite normal, same as the ones @ Suntec, albeit with more space for manouevring. The Panasonic models were pretty...yea. I think a couple were the Suzuki models from the Singapore Motorshow which just ended earlier in the month.
Quite cute larz, dounch yar think... 
But the cameras on display were much cuter...hahaz. Like the Canon D300 going for $1749 with lens...really itching to get it sia.
In the end, after milling about the exhibit hall, I chanced upon the place where they sell games, and I've bought my HL2 (Finally!) for $65 bucks. Woohoo! Time to play...hahaz.
And there were some nice playing time on the computers with the Razer mice. Damn cool. Think that's the next stuff I would get then.
Current Mood: 
Happy
Current Music: Lullaby :P
Singapore is BLIND! yea. BLIND I say! Kelong!
Why?
Singapore voted for lousy-sounding Sylvester into the finals of SGIdols. And not to really condemn him, but his performances aint the standard of an Idol of late, and he basically stayed on due to his ability to rake in votes from fanatical fans attracted to his cool, punk, cute and handsome look. Argh. What a geezer, and what a way to 'win'.
To think that the much better sounding Olinda had to be 'sacrificed' this time round...Well, at least there wasnt Daphne around. Geez. I think the entire SGIdols is turning out to be a piece of crap show.
My suggestion: Have an elimination system instead. Most votes goes packing :p
I hope Taufik wins. Yea I really do. It'll be a farce if Syl wins. Ha.
"I feel unfair for Olinda and Taufik. They have to work so hard to get their votes but all you have to do is to stand there and smile." - SI judge to Slyvester
Current Mood: 
Enraged
Current Music: Fish Leong - Wo Shi Xing Fu De
Watched Mama Mia today evening with Grace! And it was a breathtaking performance, worthy for the $65 I splashed out for only Cat III tickets. It was really great to see the producer/director of the show mixing famous Abba songs into the musical, and the edited versions of some songs definitely proved a hit amongst the audience.
"He came from Geylang."
And that was a line which actually brought the audience into the show....by using andecotes which we are very familiar in.
Definitely a must watch. And pls note that it closes this mth....so hurry!
And I think I caught the fever....the Abba fever! :P All the fav songs, all back in one action packed musical!! w00t! Definitely never regretted watching it!
Current Mood: 
Humming Abba Tunes
Current Music: Abba - Super Trooper
Pixar wins hands down for any animation movies, that's for sure, and their latest release surely cements their level of powerness in this very genre which they seem to call their own. Oh yea man. Incredible, I must say. And kudos to them also.
This is one down-to-earth movie which I would consider as lame, funny and interesting in the way u look at dysfunctional family where all the members have superpowers. A must watch, indeed.
So, not going to dwell too much on what the movie is about, to know it, watch it for yourself kayz...and, better book the tickets. Heard they are selling pipin' hot during this ultra long hols fever, and esp. since school's out lolx.
Watched this great movie with WW and JM, and pool session soon followed. Too bad, time flies, and it does. hahaz.
Still sore from badminton yesterday...lolx.
Current Mood: 
Achy
Current Music: Usher - Yeah!
Yasser Arafat is officially dead. well. It was expected, just when the news would be broken offically to the public.
Nonetheless, it makes the already volatile situation over at the Gaza Strip and West Bank a more difficult and pressing situation already. No doubt US would be interested in the new developments, and the person to succeed him as the Palestinian leader.
Just felt that he's a great leader who manages to push forth his idealogies and take actions with moderate stands to achieve his goals, however difficult the situation is. However, the dire fact is that the Palestinians have no land to call their own, no economy to talk about, and no official recognition by the world body.
May he rest in peace.
Current Mood: 
Busy
Current Music: Groove Armada - Think Twice
Well, just watched sgIdols on TV. Daphne pretty screwed it up (pardon the language, but the performance warranted this comment), Sylvester did a better renedition of the Chinese Jay Chou song than the English one, and really, I would say he seems like doing a karaoke version and sounds better :P
Olinda still rocks! Woohoo! Both songs were solid performances. Taufik? Well, hanging there, by the thread. This 4-way fight gotta see how they measure up, i.e. whose supporter base is BIGGER :P
And Sylvester should go to the Chinese Rock section :P
Current Mood: 
Enjoying Music (not sgIdols!)
Current Music: Groove Armada - Superstylin
lolx.
Missing in Action? Well...more like Missing In Blogging... haiz.
Never had time/energy to do blogging recently, everyday go home just face the bed. Hahaz. So just a recap for the past few weeks I've been away...
1. HA Plt Farewell Dinner for 2WO Ng was held @ Chevrons on the 5th, as he is leaving our unit to go over to OETI. All the best to him, and we definitely will miss him. A pillar of the plt, I would like to say, and his in-depth knowledge and experiences would count in handy during this period of change. Nonetheless, I cant influence the change, could I? Organisational requirements... The HA guys definitely drunk till they were almost out. Well, at least some of them were :P
Interesting point 1: John is a good singer
Interesting point 2: Kee Sing really cant drink. Hehz :P
2. SA Plt Farewell Dinner for 1SG Lim was held @ Owen Seafood Restaurant on the 9th. She is going on to HQ to further her career, as well as learn newer things to help us :) This was much more okay, lesser drinkers, and the SA guys were not really the drinking type. Also explains the place where we had our dinner, i.e. brightly lit, nice tables a la Chinese Dinner style. lolx.
3. Recent movies which released definitely seem interesting, no doubt. One jap show coming up (forgot the name), Taxi and a few more coming up. Plus, Star Wars Episode 3 Trailer is out :)
4. Many projects up for me. 3 in fact. So juggling them all at one go. Should be no problem, though having the ICs to help out willingly was a problem which was more or less overcome later. So far, so good.
5. Internal changes abound, so trying to make it come through would definitely take some time. Preparation for inspections and to meet customer's expectations certainly push the mark up.
6. American Elections. Bush wins, by a close margin. And frankly speaking, with the world teetering from 2 wars in just 1 season with Bush, I seriously wonder why Americans still choose their gun-toting, war-declaring Bush. And to think that the years of work which Clinton had put in to give America it's first surplus in more than a decade had gone to waste barely a year into Bush's reign as President, it surely lets one think whether he is really doing a good job on the homefront. To me, he seems more of the war-monger than one interested in serving the people and the nation's interests.
7. Yasser Arafat on the brink of death...One leg in, the other still outside. Sheesh, wish all the best for him. Who knows what the future for Middle East would be IF he were dead. What if some psychopathic dude were to become the next Palestinian leader? The already fragile diplomatic and military situation in the Middle East would be in jeopardy. Another interesting development.
To both of them who have left us, I wish them all the best in their future endeavours. Au revoir.
Current Mood: 
In Thought
Current Music: Mayday - Chun Zhen