Gone peacefully yesterday night, at 10.25pm.
I've just left the hospital after seeing her, sleeping so peacefully.
*sigh*
Some things, you just cannot anticipate.
Anyway, I'm calling off the birthday stuff. Sorry dudes. Another day, perhaps.
1 day, 2 different feelings
Returned from a trip to the movies with Tong Cai, really enjoyed War of the Worlds! Though, the ending was a little...bland? But at least it followed the novel. Oh well. I felt the CGI was pretty impressive, acting was laudable too ;) I guess, that's the happy half of the day.
Also just returned from the hospital, and it seems her condition has not been as good as before.
Her eyes were closed. Sleeping so peacefully.
A sense of loss and uneasiness swept through my heart and mind.
What could we, as family, do? Other than sitting/standing there watching helplessly whilst our loved one is on the bed, desperately fighting for every breath of air, yet taking slow, irregular breaths.
I'm sure it's painful for her. In fact, she seemed to be in a comatose state, a state where she could not react to what the people around her spoke. Stirrings seemed regular and not due to what we spoke to her.
I whispered to her eyes, telling her that me and my brother were around, letting her know of our presence.
Nothing more I could wish for than for her to open her eyes to see us one more time.
Or the thought of her attending my 21st birthday.
Or the thought of her seeing me go into university.
Just 1 month more...yet, 30 days seems so long. Even 3 days. A long long short. The chances? Negligible. Unless something unordinary happens.
Talked to Aloysius, 'cos at that moment, I felt that I needed to talk to someone. It's a difficult pill to swallow. When Grandfather left 4 years ago, it was exactly the same month.
That was the year of A levels.
I guess, I got quite shakened up, since I was much much much closer to my Grandfather than Granny. Still, I feel a sense of emotional loss.
I guess I'm just this type of guy...a guy who is sensitive. *sigh*
I've just got to wait and see. Hence, a silent vigil from now onwards.
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In Silence...
Current Music: MLTR - Breaking My Heart
It's lingering on my mind, when my parents returned from home to discuss with me regarding my birthday plans this Friday.
"Granny's condition is getting worse from yesterday, (we) have talked the doctor & nurse. In my opinion, the birhtday celebration MAY have to cancel, but wait till tomorrow and decide."
I just saw my Granny yesterday, checking on her condition, seeing whether she's still okay. Apparently, not as good, but she seems to have phlegm in her throat and is unable to remove it. Breathing was heavy, but steady. It assured me that she was all and well the way she breathed while sleeping.
I'm at a loss. The news came as a shock, and was totally different from that I've seen yesterday.
Perhaps, if a person is meant to go, he/she has to go.
I'm still deliberating on how to deal with my birthday plans. Mostly on hold, simple affair. Just JC friends, camp mates, close friends...my head is throbbing, not due to this, but due to the flu which I've gotten via the camp recently.
I hope Granny is alright. Hang in there. Be strong.
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Confused
Ahhh....early Monday morning. Rejuvenated after 2 nights' worth of sleep, lotsa water, moisturizing cream and what-nots to revitalise a weak body after 6 day's worth of fun and games at Sportgasm 2005 organised by NUS Sports Club.
It definitely lives up to it's name, in fact, I thought it brinked on the meaning of lewd already. Haha.
Anyway, the camp enabled us to try out the different sports under the NUS Sports Club. We tried Archery, Basketball, Bouldering, Canoeing, Dragon-boating, Floorball, Handball, Netball, Rugby, Volleyball, Windsurfing, and got to witness Wakeboarding stunts and tricks. Not to forget, the different martial arts groups like Taekwando, Wushu, Judo, Silat etc. made performances to let us know more about their groups.
And how could I forget to mention my OG's name...WASSSUP?!?!?!
Oh yea, you guys certainly ROX! Most exciting (and I would like to say ENTERTAINING) OG in NUS SPORTS CAMP 2005! 
The people were great, and hilarious at times ;) U guys rock MY world!
Basically, the entire camp was hot hot hot! The sun was great, but maybe...too great at times. Almost everyone in my OG returned chao ta, except for one, who applied loads and loads of sunblock onto her skin. I think the complimentary sunblock which was given was not enough also. Haha.
Also managed to upload the Sports Camp pictures from my camera online here, and my Dive Trip pictures here. Enjoy! ;)
Now, time to plan my birthday...I realised I've not planned much till now. -sigh-
Any helpers...?
Current Mood: 
Awake
Current Music: Yo Yo Yo! Wassup Yo!
Yea. Finally. Landed and touched my computer.
I think my skin colour can match that of my computer colour. Not kidding.
Will put up some pics when I've the time, now's the time to snooze and see my nephew! *excited*
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Exhausted
It was a slow slow day today, and many of us got the "golden voice" of Shirley from Kelly's Services in the morning, awakened by her 9.30am early morning call. (Hello?! We're working night shift here!)
We got the same lines, "We'll not be extending your service any further, and would it be okay with you if your last day at work be on the 25th Jun?"
And...were we supposed to say "No"?. Guess not.
Damned obvious answer, but fits into my plans perfectly.
Why? Fri-Sun is my dive trip, Next Mon-Sat is the NUS Sports Camp. So in actual fact, I had thought of stopping work this week.
Wonders of it all. Was it telepathy?
So effectively, today's my 2nd last day at work, and I bought some Tau Sa Piah from Balestier Road to treat the people at the workplace. Glad they enjoyed it. Well, freshly-baked too!
Anyway, the main point of today's post is to state that Murphy's Law really does apply, in a myraid of ways. And it happened to me, not once, but twice in a span of 2 hours...
1) I was talking to my friends at the GHS'05 CallCenter that there would not be any inbounds regardless whether all of us were at our seats or not. Seems like Heaven had to play a prank on me by letting me have the honour of getting the last call.
But thank goodness it was someone willing to do the survey. Imagine kenna shouted at and scolded at despite being the last call of the day.
If that happens, I would just hang up and say, "Eh...oops?"
Anyway, back to the person, he's a Swede, and working here, as an expatriate. His monthly salary...woah. Not to mention, he's working in a good company. Anyway, good guy to talk to, and it took pretty fast to finish the survey. All 10 minutes.
Done, and I was a happy man.
2) I wanted to print my documents for my Travel Insurance (Diving Trip) and my Sports Camp stuff, but realised the Epson printer which I have cannot work, due to the requirement of drivers. So I had to search high and low for the drivers, install in and let it work. And I tried and tried but still couldn't get it to work. Restarted the computer, and it could work. BUT the best part was that the inks had dried up!
I was like..."WTF?! At this moment?!"
No choice...have to think of a solution outta this mess I've having....grrr...
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Working
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By Zεηιτħ
A gothic, dark scene of Gotham City indeed.
Awesome piece of movie, but, I'd still prefer Keaton as Batman (personal opinion, I guess.)
From training in the League of Shadows, to protector of Gotham by ridding it of the criminals. Nice clue-in to the initial movie which started it all, Batman, by having the introduction of the Joker.
And the new Batmobile (or BatTumbler?!) certainly rocks! The way the police tried to describe the Batmobile whilst chasing was entertaining, and surprisingly funny. Not to forget, the race-to-save-the-lady-in-the-Batmobile-whilst-her-life-is-on-the-balance certainly is cool. To top it off, we get to see the Batmobile 'fly' and the way Batman engages the weapon systems, it is certainly awesome (lying down position a la sniping position).
This movie also explores how Batman chose his path admist the darkness he finds himself him after the death of his parents. In a sense, this movie was great in the delivery, and better yet with the usage of the CGI.
One thing niggling me was the strange accent he had when he dons the Batsuit, it seemed different from normal Bruce Wayne. Probably he had a voice-changer to hide his true identity.
All in all, thumbs up, and kudos to this movie. Can't wait for the next one!
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SatisfiedCurrent Music: Fun Factory - Close To You
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Runs
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By Zεηιτħ
Just back, showered and warming down from the amazing 30km run which started at MacRitchie Reservoir at 7.40am, with Ms Eunice Olsen flagging off the run, till the Merlion in downtown city area.
It took us through an amazing number of different religious places. Kong Meng San temple and Salvation Army HQ in Bishan, Ceylon Sports Club at Balestier Road, Sri Srinivasa Perumal Temple and Civil Service Club along Serangoon Road, Central Sikh Temple along Boon Keng Road, Masjid Darul Aman Mosque at Eunos, Joo Chiat Community Club, Sri Senpaga Vinayagar Temple at Ceylon Road, Nicoll Highway, Merdeka Bridge, Esplanade Drive and finally Merlion Park.
A long distance indeed.
In fact, I had some thigh problems already en route to the Masjid Darul Aman Mosque, as I could feel my right thigh muscle pulling up on me, and the left calf muscle aching a little. Both eased off after some time, but one of the runners, Philip, told me to take some cold pack and cold spray to ease the situation there. (Philip's taking a private course in Sports Medicine, which means he knows quite a bit on our running techniques, methods of recovery, and signs of pain. Interesting. 
)
Moreover, during one of the rest stops, we din realise we sat under hanging clothes till we looked up when water dripped down. Haha.
It was definitely a hot run in the late morning part, when we covered the rest of the 16km journey from Eunos to Joo Chiat and the ending point. As it went, I could feel my legs getting numb. It gave way, in the end, at the rest point at the National Stadium. Luckily, I had some help from another fellow runner, Mr Akira (who's Japanese and a former figure skating champ, and is a mean runner at his age) helped me stretch the muscle using a 'special' technique. I felt better after that, and rared to go. Nonetheless, I could feel that my body was fatigued and not the same as before.
Still, I managed to grit on and finish the run with my fellow runners, all 18 of them. It was a great run, and this is also the first time I've pushed beyond my limit of 21km, last set in AHM 2004.
This run also allowed me to know more fellow runners, all of whom are older than me. Uncles who have the stamina and determination to push on, and seemed to finish the 30km with relative ease, certainly told wonders of the training they had done during their prime. The working people were similarly fighting fit, and most of them did at least 20km. I had a great time hanging out with these guys.
Now...It's time to rest...and fill thy stomach
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Hungry and Sleepy
Just saw my Granny in hospital, looking frail, gasping for breath. It was absolutely horrible, heart-wrenching, to see a loved one in this condition. Her condition had suddenly taken a turn for the worse, and a year ago, it was much better.
My first question to my Dad was, "Why had it become like this?"
His answer, "She's old...and getting weaker, esp. with the inflammation in her food passageway."
Yet, modern science and treatment can do nothing to relive her of the pain and suffering she had undergone for the past 2 years, of which a year I was in the Army and seldom had the time to go visit her.
But, everytime I visited her, she had that smile on her face, a smile because she was happy to see her grand-children. A smile seldom seen ever since my Grandfather passed away 3 years ago. I loved her, but perhaps, not the same way as I love my parents. It might not be devastating to lose her, but still her loss signifies something I will miss, deeply. Without her, the extended family would not be here now, at her side, when she requires support and care from all closest to her. In short, everything would not be the same should she leave.
Despite her failing eyesight, and the need to ingest via a food tube, she seemed healthy enough, and I hoped she would live on longer.
That did not seem the case just moments ago.
Lying on the bed, with a crowd of relatives surrounding her as though she was someone kept in an enclosure for viewing pleasure, she tried to sleep, but could not. Partially, it was due to the difficulty in breathing. With her food-passageway inflammed, the option given was to insert a food-tube to her stomach via one side of the nose, which left just the other side of the nose open for respiratory purposes. With her weakened condition, it just took twice (or more) effort to breathe, and it seemed like a battle every second, gasping for more air. Even with the air support system which she was hooked up to.
I just had the feeling that she would leave us anytime soon. The outlook was pessimistic, and the doctors said they could do nothing, as her condition could not turn for the better. It was the dreaded feeling that she'll just go and leave your side anytime.
Looking at the people gathered, my aunts and cousins, I realised that some of them were not present. Most oddly, my 2nd uncle who was staying with my Granny was not present. Probably, they had left earlier. Similarly, my 3rd uncle and his family were not in the crowd.
I did not ask why there and then, and could not be bothered. I had rushed down from my night shift to see her, and I was flustered by the SMS which my Dad had sent.
I just had this weird feeling, I cannot explain it. Sorrow? Grief? Tears for the dead? Soon...it will come.
The only thig which I can cling on to, for now, is HOPE.
Rest well...Granny.
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